Regrets.
Hmm.. How long have it been since I last posted? 5 years. Just a blink of an eye 5 years had passed and I am already 18. A lot of things had happened since the past few years. With million words I couldn't even finish writing. The reason I am posting is because I felt really regret and stupid. During afternoon about 1-2pm, I was playing Dota 2. My mum suddenly brought a plastic bag. Inside was a container with my turtle. She then place it in front of me and told me that she was going to release her. I then told her why do u want to release? She replied that nobody want to take care of her and said do you want to keep her? I replied fine. I will take care. She ignored me and just left the house with silence. I didn't really care as I am too focused with my game. After my game I went to bought CNY clothes with friends and at that time the full of fucking regret feeling just flow into me.
I was thinking:
Is it a good idea to release her? I think as a turtle myself. Would I prefer to go a place with full of friends? Or stay in a smelly toilet for life. My sister then told me. Imagine I am traveling to another country with no relative or nobody you know. Furthermore, she said that when my father put my turtle on the floor, my turtle didn't move but my father push her into the water and she is nowhere to be seen again. When I heard this I burst with full of anger and sad at the same time. I really hate my cruel parents and I know it's funny but, I cried thinking how she is now...
I don't even know whether she is dead or alive, sad or happy. But I can said that I will give up on my dream and give the wishes for my turtle to be happy. I hope she can find someone she love and have a better life. Anyway my turtle is given to me during primary 5 as a present.
I finally know the meaning of 失去才懂得珍惜 and I also realize that my parent did not release a present. They had release a family member of mine.
Saturday, January 25, 2014
